Anxiety and quarantine, Anonymous (17)

I am an extremely anxious person by nature and I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety. A few months ago I went through a lot of changes in my life and my friends began to fade away. At first this was terrifying and I could hardly do anything in my day to day life. Before quarantine I was in probably one of the worst places I’ve ever been in mentally. I felt so isolated, unwanted, and of course anxious. When I did have rare conversations with other people, I could hardly hold a conversation because I was so scared that I would say or do anything wrong and everyone would end up hating me. Now we’ve been in quarantine for 9 weeks and honestly I feel better than ever. Of course I want the virus to go away as soon as possible and I feel awful for anyone who has been negatively affected by it, but my mental health has improved so much. Even though I’m “isolated” I feel comfort in waking up everyday and only having to worry about myself and no interactions with anyone else. But because of this I’ve become so scared of leaving this quarantine. My friends still feel so far maybe further than before and I know that it’s going to hit hard when things start to go back to normal. I want the virus to end but I want to stay in quarantine. Im so so so so scared of going back and I know my anxiety is going to be worse than ever. Even though I’m okay right now I feel this dread for what’s to come and I don’t know what I’m going to do.