I can’t even explain what goes on. In simple terms: just straight chaos is channeling through my head. I have no way to handle it. No way to stop all of it. My head is just underwater but I manage to seem calm. I attempt to master my anxiety through laughter, physical exercise, and learning... but nothing works. With isolation, it seems like the ideal time to try and figure myself out, but I don’t know how to start. What the hell do I even do?