Disassociating, Anonymous (16)

I have been dissociating for a while and I don't know how to feel normal again. I look in the mirror and feel like I'm staring at a stranger. I'll pull into my driveway and have no memory of my drive home. When I think about my childhood I feel like I'm imagining someone else's life. Even my own bedroom feels unfamiliar. It feels like there's a constant fog surrounding my head like I have been stuck in a dream this last month. All of my memories are a blur. It scares me because I can't feel anything anymore because it feels like it's not happening to me. You could tell me my best friend died and I wouldn't have a reaction. I feel like my body doesn't belong to me, I'm not sure what things I've dreamed and what I've actually done, and I just feel like nothing around me is real. I've lost all motivation to leave my house, to maintain friendships, to do anything really. I just want this feeling to go away and I want to re-enter reality but I have no idea what to do.

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