Recently the person I've been in love with since 8th grade led me on for about 6 months she told me about a month ago that she didn't want to be with me. She said it was because she didn't want her family to make fun of her and call her gay. Little did she know I'm a trans man I recently figured this out and when I told her she was really happy for me. She still didn't want to be with me though she said it was because she didn't want me to have to come out to my family and her family. She is one of my closest friends and I'll always love her always. I've always had this soft spot for her it's like she walks into the room and my entire world brightens up she had this smile that's so contagious even writing this right now he's making me smile uncontrollably. I will always love her and she will always be a big part of my life because she was the first person that I was vulnerable with about everything and now she's one of my biggest supporters. I hate that she only wants to be friends now but I'm still happy that she's here by my side for every step of the way. And for anyone reading this I'm just going to let you know just because you lost someone you love does not mean that they don't care about you and it gets better I'm not going to lie some days are harder then others but it takes time to heal. Once you heal and get over this person your days will be much easier to get through I promise.