Heartbreak, Anonymous (17)

It’s been about 7 months...and my heart still hurts. It hurts because after all this time and the pain she put me through, I still love her. I still care for her. and I am still willing to be here for her every day. and she doesn’t want that. it hurts because just when things get “better” they get worse again. I let her go and then suddenly she’s my first thought in the morning again. I rarely go a day without thinking about her. She apologized for everything out of the blue. That’s all I wanted for months. but now it doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t make me feel better because it doesn’t bring back the past. And I know there is no going back. So I’m trying to move forward, but sometimes that seems impossible. It just hurts. Nothing I say changes that. It is what it is but the thing that sucks is...it didn’t have to be this way.